Reflections on Rage: Making Room in My Circle for “The Man in the Swamp”

Paula Underwood, my Iroquois teacher, was fond of saying, “The amount of conflict you can incorporate into your circle is directly proportional to the amount of peace you will feel.”

Here’s some conflict I’ve let into my circle recently…

I read this press release from Citizen Watch and I was so angry over what I perceived as “green washing” that I could punch my hand through a wall.

I mean, what does Eli Manning have to do with eco friendly consciousness or social responsibility? He’s so rich when so many people in the world are so poor. Feeling mighty righteous, I wrote this text:

“You could hire Eli Manning. You can hire my green penis and pay it a million dollars to endorse your next “eco-watch”.  Listen, my green penis is just as relevant. As far as I am concerned, it can pass, kick and score field goals. No- it is more relevant. I have no children– over population is one of the critical issues for a sustainable future. My green penis would be a better endorsement — if it were for sale, which, I say for all Madison Ave — Alas, my good Sirs–it is not!”

Not really appropriate for someone blogging in support of social responsibility in the jewelry industry. Those adult businessmen who see me in their suits and ties at trade shows would react unfavorably to such a rant. My green penis does not wear a tie. Discretion became the better part of valor.

I have had a meditation practice for over twenty-five years. Pictures of my teachers on my altar stare at me every morning when I sit. Clearly, this is not an “enlightened” perspective. But is that level of cynical, embittered rage a sign of weakness?

The answer to this question gets to the heart of eastern practices versus the indigenous approaches that my Native American teachers have taught me.

Certainly, cynicism is fragmenting. Anyone can dismiss or at the very least, marginalize an attack. Imus, Stern and Rush will always have their limited demographic support for their toxic spew.

What is created over a thousand years can be destroyed in a few seconds. It is harder to actually build something and be life giving.

Yet the first step in working with circle is to give what is in your circle a right to exist. In this case, I am talking about my internal circle of characters. I am not one who has faith in an internal - or external for that matter - monotheism. I pay attention to the archetypal nature of my dreams. There are many characters within.

Working with circle wisdom means honoring the internal characters. This character who wrote the above passage I call the man at the ‘bottom of the swamp’ and he holds one of the critical anchors to my creative process.

He is not some sensitive new age guy down there. He is rooted in cathartic, earth-based perspectives. I have a lifeline down to him. His bullshit meter is hyper sensitive and he can be outrageous. I take him elk hunting, along with my mountain lion.

Alliances with one’s darker side give insight and power. For me, this means fleshing out and even dialoguing with that part of oneself. Ultimately, one gives it a job that it enjoys. He enjoyed writing about our green penis.

The swamp man’s job is to wake me up from the consensus trance. The next task is to use him as an alliance and then walking around the circle to hear all the voices. I gather all the wisdom I have to channel that energy into dialogue, taking us deeper, I go into the center of my world, the place of deepest humanity, and see the whole picture.

Anger and rage is tied to grief and grief is tied to pain, and pain tied to the universally tragic condition of living on earth as a human being. We are all one circle.

I think, as a writer, the more conscious we are of all voices in our internal circle, the more power we have. Character and insight depends upon empathy, and empathy starts with oneself.

Just because I wrote an attack doesn’t mean I have to use it. Just because I am angry does not mean I have to put my hand through a wall. Besides, I live in an adobe house and there would not be much left of my hand.

Though I do not agree with Citizen’s method, there is benefit. Even I have taken one angle and emphasized disproportionately in marketing my product.

This place of acceptance, like forgiveness, or love, is a process. It is hard to do because it is easier to feel outrage and self righteous than it is to go deep into one’s own heart and find the universal in one’s micro experience.

During extended meditation retreats I have come to really understand completely that what is outside me in the world is really inside me, in my heart and mind. All my life experience points toward one truth: the universe is a giant mirror.

I do not live enough in this wisdom. I can bitch and blame others just as well as the next guy. The recognition that we are all part of one circle, is a journey.

Inside of us there are many circles. There are many altars. There are many gods. Let us honor them all, and not make the mistake that Carl Jung warned us about when he said, “The gods have become diseases.”

My goal with my writing is to take the reader into the heart of our human experience as much as I possibly can. I want to give them no way out except through the understanding that we are all connected.

Now, what may we learn from that?

16 Responses to “Reflections on Rage: Making Room in My Circle for “The Man in the Swamp””

  1. Hey- This ties into something I’ve been experiencing for a long while, namely, my own difficulty honoring the boundary that’s set by my Inner Swamp Man. “This far and no further,” uttered in the fearsome, no nonsense tone of a warrior; and yet I have tended to blithely push forward into situations where I am being taken advantage of. As I welcome the sense of integrity that comes from those places where I feel self-righteous or full of outrage, I also become more open to leaving situations, relations and contexts that aren’t resonating or that are distractions. It’s interesting how this voice, which we think of as “low” or “base,” is (like all the characters we have within us) a defender of the purpose and integrity of our souls.

    The trick is an alliance with Swamp Man that isn’t based on the concession that he gets to act out however, wherever and whenever he wants. He gets his air time in ways that don’t burn bridges. He used to get his air time by sabotaging my outer life, by burning bridges, by throwing slant tantrums when he couldn’t get direct respect and attention.

    As for the creative process: I believe it is absolutely amoral. When the juice is flowing in music or writing, all bets are off. It’s pure energy, neutral and not tied to “oughts,” to conventions or niceties. In the novel, there’s all sorts of politically incorrect behavior and attitudes on the part of the characters. They get to tell their stories too, without censorship or squeamishness. Sure, there’s editing and refining and more reflection as part of the process too, but the most stifling thing for me is to try to be a Good Boy when I’m making something. Don’t think there are many Soft Males who make anything particularly moving….

    thanks for your thoughts,

    Peter

  2. Peter

    I like what you say about all bets being off. Yes, all bets are off. Spirit, intelligence, creativity have been so constrained by our current system that we sit like a frog in warming water, waiting to boil alive… unless some of us start Howling together.

    But why do we say that voice of the swamp is low? Low meaning, less than high. Why was Calaban less wise or valuable than Prospero in our Brave New World? Bullshit, I say to that. The destroyers of circles, the Holy Seer and his Inquisition, the builders of empire, have taught us that low, the underworld, is bad, dark and the heavens are good and perfect. What a terrible tragedy and crime against the earth, against our bodies, against the great lovers of beauty within us. They even turned Pan into the devil. Now, I call that evil—though I hate to use the word.

    The hard edge, the line, the line that started with Christ and ends with George Bush ascending in Rapture comes in part from our societal split between Dionysus and Apollo. The result is both are experienced as shadow.

    Too much Apollo in our world, disconnected from the taste of dirt.

    The creative destructive energy of the theatrical Dionysus—addiction– is actually a way of bringing spirit into life which involves breaking down structures, bringing shadow to the bright light. Bringing spirit into matter that is too hardened by the light.

    The ceremonial context of the Maenads, the wine, tobacco, theater, the mysterious feminine power of creation has been split off from the sacred. This is just one more instance of what Jung said … Yes, the gods have become diseases.

    The wound is in the dialectic form because Western Civ has had too much cooking in Hegel’s kitchen. I say, enter all in the circle. Swamp man, Apollo, everyone. Bring the circle back. Let us all be part of one great whole that honors our individuality. There is no opposition. No more need for monotheistic heroic ego consciousness to guide us to our own extinction.

    I also say, Fuck the good boy. (Not in the shadow way of Catholic priests but in the classic sense of Spartan warriors passing on the arête of masculine power.) I’m tired of trying to be nice. You are right. The good boy has nothing to say. He just spends his time watching TV for forty hours a week. He has the emotional maturity of a twelve year old. He is disconnected. In my business, he has turned the death of 3.7 million Africans from Blood diamonds into a statistic, and now he is doing business as usual with his hands clean from new “ethics.”

    I want to bring him into our circle too because he has sold his humanity for money.

    Our cultural split does not give room for ecstasy because it is out of the rule of law. Hence, the quest for it, and the spirit it brings, ends up being self destructive, but out of that destruction, if honored, rises something real.

    Howl! Let all of us Howl about this in our own way! I want to hear your jazzs.

    The heart is like an ocean. Hazrat Inayat Khan, the great Sufi mystic who lived in that heart, said it another way. The world is a tavern. Choose your wine.

  3. hey Marc- oh boy (so to speak) do I have a lot to say about this…but I am off to play poker. And so it will ferment until tomorrow….

    P

  4. Thanks for quoting Inayat Khan; in researching for the interview I’m doing today with Sonny Rollins I discovered that Sufism has been important for Rollins. I love being present for these connections.

    Anyway, a spiritual solution (wrong word, as there is no problem, but it’s one of the few words we have) or a spiritual answer (no question, so, again, inadequate terminology) is so rarely suggested now. Pills, booze, sex, cars, clothes, food, “spirituality” that is really just *identity* or *style*, or even more subtly poisonous, “spirituality” that is all light and no shadow, or that reinforces separation and fragmentation; all these and more are recommended for our starving souls. All the soul wants is to be lived with, given voice, liberated. The soul lives in a world of One, where all is One and One is all. It’s always home, just waiting in whatever form or story we dress it up in, to speak, to breathe. The Man in the Swamp IS The Good Boy. Isn’t that funny?

    PB

  5. hey mark, thanks for the invite.
    there is thunder over the swamp.
    swamp tea is brewing.
    in the meantime get rid of that shinny gold jewelry shit at the top of your page. replace it with scorpions, swamp moss and rattlesnakes.
    good boy buying trinkets for his wife tonight?
    i rather spend the money on a good bottle of scotch or a trip
    to the amazon. the vine of the soul twisting and turning in every direction.
    howl, not whine.
    true surrender is the only option here.
    not knowing is the only way to move in the dark.

  6. I drink the advice of my good comrades, like the piss that flows from the my Mother’s body in the Amazon river… the best scotch there is, the star dust made holy and infinitely aged in the layers of time that flow out into clouds and rain that drench my garden in Eden. Spirit made earth while I walk in the dark, leaning into that next mystery.

    In the old stories what is the nature of those rivers that flow through Hades? Forgetfulness… but what are the others?

    This is not about form, not about style, not about spirit and not about soul. If we are to know what story we are in, we must look to the great mythic journeys, for the the new dream in this darkness trying to be born between the arsenic hours between two and four in the morning when I cannot sleep…. this new world can only be expressed in the mythic realm, an emergence a sipapu coughing amniotic fluid of dirt from our lungs as we enter some new illusive to imagine. Or is that new world here, right inside me, the mirror of the outside is what is inside?

    I only know that for years I sought to escape through “spiritual means.” True, samadhi is btter than heroin. Now I just want to journey in that green, and let that green into my veins, the green fuse, as Dylan Thomas says.

    I had a conversation with a coastal Native guy who asked me: When you are young and hurt, who do you cry to? Your mother, I said. When you are a man, who do you cry to?

    Alas, too many men have forgotten how to cry and how to cry to the Mother. Some think that food grows in trucks. Some think that matter is dead. Some think that Mother is only an Indian Guru and not the vibrant snake energy that holds their feet in place while we spin around the sun at twenty-five thousand miles a second. For me, escape from the pain She suffers is a cowardly bypass.

    I say, the hell with spirituality and form. Toss away the crutches and learn to walk. For thousands of years the priests have encouraged us to think that form is the essence, when the essence is living without form.

    Peter, isn’t that what makes great jazz? Bob, isn’t that what Zen teaches? If you see the Buddha in the road, shoot him.

    Here’s a poem I wrote just recently:

    Bait and Switch

    The incarnation of the corpses piled on my door step
    Draped in the drugs of Jefferson Davis, the corporate confederates
    Who grow clean fingernails walking in what world they become:
    Merely shadows of Stalin, with his five years plans: the death of one
    Is a tragedy while the death of millions, a statistic.

    I am lying there, each day a bullet aimed at the bodies that drift
    Earthbound, inhabited by hungry ghosts that feed off eyes
    Tumbling from the sky like whirling ecstatic snow flakes,
    Or planets, these bodies of light made water, frozen.

    What prayer is possible when one is gathering pieces
    Like a Russian woman searching for mushrooms in drought?
    She wants to make a good soup from the old country but cannot.
    She returns to her hearth grateful just for the next breath.

    The worms will do their work in time, returning
    The layers to the Mother’s fat stomach.
    Her dirt swims with elemental purity greater
    Than any thought—perhaps a consolation
    If not for this moment which expands infinitely
    Like a swamp exploding on a sword’s edge.

    PS: Bob—thanks for the advice about the graphics. It is a long story, but I know site needs to be updated and having you see it from the outside reminds me of that.

  7. mark,
    its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
    do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
    thought about howl? why hide your howl here in a remote corner of cyberspace. De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace? if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds with one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage rage against the dying of the night….(also DT) this is a serious question, one i am interested in knowing you. a quick google search for mark choyt will take you right to this page. exposed.the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,
    thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just
    verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here.
    the dream continues.

  8. Hey- this is sparky! I’m appreciating the challenges. Bob, the “between” is too easy, isn’t it? Isn’t the hardest thing “both/and”? Because as soon as we say “yeah, I guess I’m between,” we’re believing again that we know what story we are in. I’d like to suggest we can’t know what story we are in. I can believe I know the story I’m in but that’s part of the story I’m in and becomes an attachment, another form among forms , an illusion that I am *something*. Truth is I am, nothing filling in the non-existent blank afterwards.

    Cecil Taylor said “form is possibility.”

    As for hiding out in a cyberspace backwater, it’s actually (as you point out, Bob) not possible. My internet ramblings are not even a year old and I’ve been contacted by many people who had lost track of me. There’s a new nakedness on here (who knows how temporary it will be?) and a ferocious flow of ideas and opinions that’s pretty vital. and swampy.

    As for obscuring the natural world, we are poets by nature with “poet” in its ancient etymological roots simply meaning “maker.” We are makers. So there is no “natural world” without us, really. “Nature without man is barren,” uttered Blake, not arrogantly or in any sort of overmastering way, just bluntly, truthfully. Try being on top of Atalaya without imagining anything, for example. Who knows Atalaya will still be there after “I” am dead? Even the effort to stop making sense makes sense.

    PB

  9. Bob,

    What you have raised is a personal and I say, let them find me here, because the strategy of radical transparency as outlined by Clive Thompson in his Wired Magazine article http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/15.04/wired40_ceo.html is the way of the future.
    I am a writer, sometimes a poet, and now a journalist and blogger.

    I call upon all the men in suits to read this blog because it is a real conversation, a real dialogue about things that matter to all of us and we need to have conversations like this.

    Why do you call the work that RI produces trinkets? Do you really feel that Helen as a designer is just designing trinkets? To me, that is a hurtful comment. Would you come into my shop and announce, “Nothing but trinkets being made here?”

    The people who make this jewelry are highly trained artists and designers who put love and attention into what they do. I put love and attention into my work. It is my service, just as much as taking care of orphans in Haiti was my service, or meditating for a year in a monastery was my service twenty years ago. We have a great community feeling in our company and that extends also too many of the customers who I sell to. I want only good energy for them.

    Maybe jewelry is not your thing and maybe you would rather have a bottle of scotch. But for many people I know personally, to be able to buy something that we make that is beautiful and rich in meaning is a service, especially these days when much of what is made in the jewelry world is merely commodity and soulless.

    We have been doing this for eleven years. There are thousands of people who wear what comes out of our shop and deeply connect to its symbolism and beauty. To them, our jewelry is a deep expression of interconnectedness expressed symbolically. Adornment is a fundamental human need; the earliest jewelry found dates back 80,000 years– well before the paintings on the cave walls.

    My work place also provides a relatively safe haven for the people I employ from the insanity of corporate America. I have people in our local alternative community who even draw inspiration from a company that offers as much to their people as we do. We are not perfect. But we are attempting to be part of an alternative solution to the mainstream jewelry world and the mainstream business world.

    I remember a few years ago we had our dream group meeting in our gallery and I heard you basically cut down the work that and my livelihood. This time I am saying something, because whether you meant it or not, it feels like an attack and since you have done it in a public way, I am responding in a public way. Not all of us can be a healer Zen teacher artists like you. Not all of us can just produce one of kind paintings like you do. You are one of my dearest friends for the last twenty years and I love you, but what you say here feels very elitist. I have not felt this from you for a while, but now I do again so it is good to get it out into the open.

    One thing I’d like to say is that we are all in one story that involves sucking from the same straw. It is very easy to attack and put down. But creating a company that I have which is based on a difficult model has involved huge risks, years of no payback, years of struggling and wondering what was I doing in this situation…And there is also another story, here, of feeling like my work in my life in the developing world, as a teacher, as a business person, and as someone who is on a journey has come together and is expressed in my story and in how I work with the energy of my company.

    In the early years I felt I was always in the Iliad. Constant war, in a war. The question was, how can I find my way back into the Odyssey? To do this has taken years of struggle, introspection and hard gambling, wondering if I can meet payroll and if I am going to loose the house that I’m living on financing my company since it was and still is on the craps table.

    Now I find myself in business and in an odyssey, which is another way of saying, my journey home. It is authentic integration, dealing with constant ethical gray areas of what is fair and equitable, and what is not. How many business people do you know that have a wage scale where the highest paid person in salary makes less than twice the lowest paid person? Do you really think is would be easy for you to create such a model in an environment, a war paradigm business model, that rewards greed? Anyone who even tries to do this is part of my community and I am howling to find them because we need each other now more then ever.

    And who do you serve in your work that allows you to sustain yourself? My employees could not afford your services at $125 an hour. I know that you do a lot of discount work for less, but the point is that those who can afford to pay for your services are those who have drunk deeply of the dream that is destroying the earth. The attorneys, the doctors, the insurances agents, the business people. They suck from the Mother’s belly to feed you.

    We are all interconnected and all part of one circle. That is basis of my circle manifesto: not to find what separates and puts us into dialectic, not to throw someone’s shit in their face but to honor them, give them the right to exist and ask how we might be able to work together. Everyone has their humanity—even those business people, many of which I count as good friends even if I disagree with many of their ideas. They must be brought into the circle. They are part of the solution as well.

    Now, let me address what you say point by point: Your comments are in ( )

    (its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
    do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
    thought about howl?)

    Whether Ginsberg would have approved or not, who knows. I think what Ginsberg honored was authenticity and journey. This is not such a remote corner of cyberspace, as Peter said.

    (De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace?)

    I do not need to worry about losing my job (knock wood) or at least someone firing me. I guess that makes what I say here cowardly.

    ( if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds)

    Diamonds support huge economies in Africa and beyond. There are companies that are mining them ethically. You can read about them on my other blog. There are social entrepreneurs who are doing remarkable service. I am giving them a place to Howl.

    These are the companies that I support. So the story here is one that recognizes my connection to the people in Africa and the customers I sell to. How do you bridge that gap? My story is to do the best to try to create a new story in which that exchange is fair and equitable. It is easy to sit back from the outside and slash slash slash away. It is harder to create an industry wide blog, http://www.fairjewelry.org and commit to writing on it to build a community of people who wish to change the way the jewelry world is function. That takes time away from finishing my literary novel and walking in the mountains.

    I say, I welcome the men in suits into my circle. They are people too, with hopes and dreams and many of them—those in the rat race wish for a better future. They do not like being disconnected any more than we do. They do not want poison air and water. A small change, pocket change for them, back to the miners in Africa will have a huge effect. It will feed people. That is the story I’m trying to work toward. It is the story I have been trying to work toward my whole life.

    (With one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage against the dying of the night…. (Also DT) this is a serious question, one I am interested in knowing you. a quick goggle search for mark choir will take you right to this page. exposed. the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,)

    As I said in the original bog entry, the man in the swamp, my wish is to be effective, to work in the circle. Saying it to their face, what good would it do but create polarities? That is a much easier task in many respects than opening the heart and listening and working toward a solution.

    (thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here. the dream continues.)

    Yes, let the dream continue. We are all one circle. I honor this open hearted dialogue. The man in the swamp is alive and well in all of us.

  10. mark,
    well, i didnt mean anything at all as a personal attack,
    i thought you knew the swamp man. he was talking. not me.
    its not my fault.
    to the swamp man our whole culture is nothing but trinkets.
    my art, your jewlry, museum of modern art, versace, picasso,
    the mona lisa, an exquisite buddha,all trinkets to piss on. you think you can heal a rock, good luck. you couldnt even heal a tadpole if you had to. he wears lichen for clothes and spanish moss around his neck. you opened this territory mark. kill the buddha, right. i thought we were lightheartedly getting to know each others swamp men. dont take things so seriously. the swamp man laughs at himself continuously, coverd with his own mud and shit. its very confusing how you have jumped out of the swamp man persona into your apallonian hurt little boy persona. thats why i asked you what story you are in. you are very confusing. stay in the swamp man persona a little longer , o.k.?, there is no problem here, no criticism of you or your way of life whatsoever. there is a lot of projection on your part. there is a koan in zen that goes like this. the dog pisses on the temple gate, or the dog pisses on the buddha’s head, etc. i thought that is where you were coming from, what this dialogue was about. i didnt expect you to flip back into this other very serious guy. hey, i think what you and helen are doing is remarkable , great, worthy of 4 gold stars, etc. and by the way most of my clients make less money a year than you do , have no insurance,and could never afford to travel for a month a year. they just happen to know that for a hundred bucks they can take care of a health issue that would cost them thousands otherwise. I am cheap. I dont make much money at this job.my swamp man is irreverant as hell, just like the mudheads making fun of everthing sacred and holy and usefull. you have flipped into your good little boy. i can talk to him to if that is where we are now. just let me know who is hear now.i can accept it all into my circle. i have outlaws,royalty ,jehova’s witnesses, the rumsfeld family, and little abused boys and girls in my circle of clients. i honor them all. you too, so sit back and laugh at it from swamp mans perspective. radical transparency requires a light heart and a great sense of humor about it all. coyote howls and pisses all over your jewlery and my paintings and my hands. it smells great, but it freightens mice and rats away. run for your life. lighten up.

  11. p.s.
    i think you are absolutely wrong about saying it to their face.
    by not saying it you are excluding them from the circle. in the circle we are all face to face, unavoidable. polarity is hiding it from them.
    non polarity is including them in the circle so they can see you face to face and hear what you really think. you are hiding otherwise, stepping outside the circle, calculating, planning, protecting yourself, not showing your swamp man. speaking truth to power means speaking it to their face so they can lip read you if they cant hear you. solutions can only happen if they know what you think. mark, there is something here that you are on the edge of, letting go of your jewish heritage and fear of being put in a concentration camp, and just saying it like it is. that is radical transparency.
    give up the drama. or if you want to be diplomatic, forget about the circle.
    maybe the circle only works when people want to be in the circle and really know you. maybe you dont want everyone in the circle. maybe the circle is just for your inner life and your friends and community and employees .
    when you draw a circle, there is a lot more that is outside of it than is inside of it. knowing who is in your circle and who is outside of it maybe more accurate and important . and with those that are outside of it you need to be a little more tackfull with and suspicious of. and not speak the truth to.
    anyone outside marks inner circle wish to comment? I am hiding my circle deep in the wilderness and i know who is outside of it. at this level there are many. i cant draw a circle big enough to include everything . there will always be an outside to the circle if you draw it. dream.

  12. Swamp Breslin says “grrrrrrrrrowowowowg!”

    (when this particular Swamp Man drinks coffee, there is great danger….)

    You know we all have something vulnerable we feel could come under attack. If we’re naked anywhere that’s exactly where we still need to find some sort of welcoming home, some sort of acceptance. I smoke like a frikkin’ chimney and can as yet find absolutely no “justification” or even (really) explanation for continuing to do so. I’m moving to Tempe Arizona in a couple of weeks in order to *stay with my woman* who is getting up to *productive activity* as an MFA student in poetry; me, I’m essentially her pool boy, her butler, at least at the moment as I have no job, no plans, and really no excuse and should *know better*. My Santa Fe snobby friends have all pretty much universally said “You pussy-whipped idiot, why are you moving to a hell hole?”
    (Not you Marc, and not a very few others….) But my point is we *lack integrity* in the essential definition of every single aspect or facet of who we are and what we do hanging elegantly and transparently together into one miraculous whole. Swamp Breslin laughs at the apparent splits, self-contradictions and inchoate fragments.

    I was looking at a group of ants trying to move a huge piece of a bagel toward their ant hill the other day. Maybe about 13 ants. Some pushing on one side and some pulling on the other. Climbing sometimes on each other, sometimes falling off and running around in circles. The anthill was maybe 4 feet away due west. The piece of bagel jerked north, northeast, back west again, south, zigs and zags and tumbles, sometimes an ant temporarily trapped underneath or left behind. Sometimes it looked like an ant or two on the west side was pushing by mistake, confused and actually engaged in enormous effort against the goal. But over time the piece of bagel somehow continued generally toward the anthill, unaccountably. In each smaller separate moment my judgment was that the piece of bagel would never get there, those crazy ants just wasting time. But I observed for about 15 minutes and eventually they got it pretty much four inches west.

    I was thinking those ants are all those seemingly different, fragmented “parts” of who I am. You know it just seems like a big fucking mess a lot of the time.

    PB

  13. a couple more things….Swamp Man one day might laugh at trinkets, but the next he might steal into the palace and abscond with all of the Queen’s jewelry, delighted by the reflections of light off gold and stone. All the jewelry deep in the swamp then, occasionally brought ought, pissed on to reveal again the magic, the mud and slime washed off. And maybe the hurt little boy would have to go into the swamp and get the jewelry back for the Queen and in the process befriend Swamp Man. (Isn’t this how some of the old stories work? Or maybe the little boy would be eaten alive by Swamp Man……or maybe it would be a little girl and she and Swamp Man would have a dozen swamp babies who would rise up and slit the King’s throat and force the Queen into servitude for a thousand thousand years……who knows?)

    Another thought: Citizen Watch company *is* full of shit and *is* clearly engaged in greenwashing with their ridiculous “eco watch” campaign starring NFL pretty boy Eli Manning. Let’s not forget what Swamp Man accurately raged against in the first place…..

    PB

  14. I love how infectious “Swamp Man”. Once you mention him, is permitted free reign and is indulgently channeled by all.

    In a book I’m presently reading, one of the main characters is constantly plagued by “The Imp of the Perverse”. Basically, Swamp Man makes him do things he aught not do.

    I think what you are struggling with here is a need to address the relevant and necessary urge to be angrily honest without being judged or suffering repercussions.

    Rather than try to mask your archetypes, give them pen names.

    When a given event or topic strikes a nerve within a given character, give that character free reign. By using pen names, you protect your self from any backlash that they might deserve.

    Personally, I would love to see some character writing here and on your other blogs. People do it all the time. Do you think Perez Hilton just got lucky that his name was the most frequently searched misspelling of the year. I think not.

  15. Well, I say it was the swamp man who wrote my last response, not some Apollonian hurt little boy, but the real rage in him (SWAMPMAN) perceived as a transition from light hearted conversation into heavy judgment… because sometimes jokes have a serious edge. I know hurt little boy rage and I know Apollonian rage and I will say that this rage is not either of those.

    Bob, I think the poetry and coyote piss is great and light and all that but again that you’re blog is continuing the judgment of me: “hurt little boy personae.” That is a serious cut: devaluation. Why did you say that? I take in your kind words of support and honor for what Helen and I do, but it was pissed upon by that comment. Typically the little boy does not have a way of grounding his anger. He does not have power to affect the adult world. Typically, Apollo does not deal with shadow and darkness. Do you feel that my response, Bob, is really constellated around these two archetypes? Does my writing seem childish and my anger disconnected from the swamp and the adult world where we function?

    In the first entry, my original article, I talked about rage and my green penis. The rage that takes me down to the swamp, the rage I have felt and continue to writing right now twenty four hours later. As to whether it was projection or not, all I can do is quote I line out of a Tibetan tantric text that I know: there is no subjective reality; there is no objective reality. I think that in saying such things, they might mean that life is as clear as the water of a swamp until you reach enlighenment, and even then there is no end to learning. What I know is that the world is a giant mirror. Don’t start accusing others of projection.

    This gets to the form of the swamp man, which varies from swamp to swamp and man to man, because for some the swamp is entering the business world as a healer full fledged marketing business plan getting oneself and one’s power and one’s art in the world so it can reach far and wide and for others it entering a cave or for others it is sitting on the beach. What he is in each of us, how he works through as we move our bagel east or west miss spelling Parez Hilton is fluid, I think, like the old stories. The forms change.
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    So who is anyone to judge what is swamp man and what is not swamp man.

    Now, responding to the PS: how one chooses to navigate, whether one should say it to “their faces” or not, cannot even be considered in the abstract. It is all situational dependent. Of course, sometime the best thing is to be direct and in the face, but at other times such action can only result in losing credibility in a community that one is trying to have an effect upon. My fairtrade.org blog is effective in part because I am an insider in the jewelry industry instead of an NGO. I am effective because I am positive and inclusive. If you are starting a seed in the ground, it needs water and light, not anger and darkness.

    It easy for someone to look on outside looking in and judge what I should do or what I should not do or to tell me how I should work in the circle. For me, It comes down to walking the edge of a sword, the path, knowing when to say yes, when to say no, when to do a judo move and when to run away. To say I should commit to one option only suggests I should enter that mandella like a narcissistic child or Cyclops.

    My initial article stated my choice clearly at this time: that is, to bring everyone in the circle. That is what my Native teachers have taught me and it is my choice and has nothing to do with concentration camps, my past fears or being a Jew but is based on my understanding at this time as to how I can be most effective as an activist. Didn’t Don Juan dress impeccably when he was outside of the desert? I like that model best. That’s why I cut my hair short instead of wearing it down to my waste. I want to be as effective as possible in the straight world.

    Besides, the decisions I make involve real risks. I am the one who has his neck on the line, and it is not just my neck, but the neck of my company as well to some degree. I will continue to attempt to build consensus and by doing that, grow the group of people interested circle based business so it can have the largest reach possible.

  16. Even the Suits have their Swamp Man. They take him out and go Harley riding on Saturday or play Paint Ball Wars or hire a Dominatrix to bring him out and give his green penis a good airing. Balance? Hell, they wouldn’t know it if it slapped them in the balls. I feel it is important to air our Swamp Dudes whenever we fall out of balance….and not just sit around a campfire, banging on the drum all night.

    The Swamp Man is a Bastard. He has to be. Survival in the Swamp. Go ahead. Just try and keelhaul a 20ft Alligator with only a pair of tweezers and a piece of Bazooka Joe Bubblegum…

    But that same bastard can see trouble on the horizon. A veteran of a 1001 sleepless nights lurking in the tepid waters of our consumerist society, he can see the disjointed and mocking footsteps of the ‘greenwashing’ businessman as he steps towards the limelight.

    And cry ‘foul’! and let loose the dogs of war!

    I too have felt the ire of my Swamp Man when I see such as this. Better to unleash him for a while so he can have his rant rather than stuffing his hurt, indignant feelers back inside. But not to destruction. But to creation. It took who knows, how many years for the giant Buddha statues to be built in Afghanistan. And there they stood for a thousand or more years. It took two minutes for the Taliban to blow them up.

    But for all his wrath, my Swamp Man can be very sensitive. This also is a requirement for survival. For every predator, there is prey. So too for the Swamp Man. He is prey to others as well. Yet he still stalks his prey, ever wary for the soft growl of the lion behind him.

    My Swamp Man can be a right Bastard! My Swamp Man is not a Mentalist. He doesn’t go in for fancy literary expressionism or for obscure archetypal analysis. He’s a meat and taters kind of guy. He’d assume kill you as look at you sometimes. And he has cunning. He can see the maniac loading his gun out of the corner of my eye and can quietly go up and knock shit out of him before the shooting starts. And if he can’t, he has the good grace to get the fuck out of there at speed.

    Whether we are having a mutual ass slapping contest here or not, it seems as if some battle lines are being drawn here. Whether we are sticking our toes in the sand and daring one another to step over it or not, it is a pointless exercise at best. If you want to drive your point home quickly, sometimes it is best to be the Bastard and knock shit out of the other guy……metaphorically speaking, of course….

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Paula Underwood, my Iroquois teacher, was fond of saying, “The amount of conflict you can incorporate into your circle is directly proportional to the amount of peace you will feel.”

Here’s some conflict I’ve let into my circle recently…

I read this press release from Citizen Watch and I was so angry over what I perceived as “green washing” that I could punch my hand through a wall.

I mean, what does Eli Manning have to do with eco friendly consciousness or social responsibility? He’s so rich when so many people in the world are so poor. Feeling mighty righteous, I wrote this text:

“You could hire Eli Manning. You can hire my green penis and pay it a million dollars to endorse your next “eco-watch”.  Listen, my green penis is just as relevant. As far as I am concerned, it can pass, kick and score field goals. No- it is more relevant. I have no children– over population is one of the critical issues for a sustainable future. My green penis would be a better endorsement — if it were for sale, which, I say for all Madison Ave — Alas, my good Sirs–it is not!”

Not really appropriate for someone blogging in support of social responsibility in the jewelry industry. Those adult businessmen who see me in their suits and ties at trade shows would react unfavorably to such a rant. My green penis does not wear a tie. Discretion became the better part of valor.

I have had a meditation practice for over twenty-five years. Pictures of my teachers on my altar stare at me every morning when I sit. Clearly, this is not an “enlightened” perspective. But is that level of cynical, embittered rage a sign of weakness?

The answer to this question gets to the heart of eastern practices versus the indigenous approaches that my Native American teachers have taught me.

Certainly, cynicism is fragmenting. Anyone can dismiss or at the very least, marginalize an attack. Imus, Stern and Rush will always have their limited demographic support for their toxic spew.

What is created over a thousand years can be destroyed in a few seconds. It is harder to actually build something and be life giving.

Yet the first step in working with circle is to give what is in your circle a right to exist. In this case, I am talking about my internal circle of characters. I am not one who has faith in an internal - or external for that matter - monotheism. I pay attention to the archetypal nature of my dreams. There are many characters within.

Working with circle wisdom means honoring the internal characters. This character who wrote the above passage I call the man at the ‘bottom of the swamp’ and he holds one of the critical anchors to my creative process.

He is not some sensitive new age guy down there. He is rooted in cathartic, earth-based perspectives. I have a lifeline down to him. His bullshit meter is hyper sensitive and he can be outrageous. I take him elk hunting, along with my mountain lion.

Alliances with one’s darker side give insight and power. For me, this means fleshing out and even dialoguing with that part of oneself. Ultimately, one gives it a job that it enjoys. He enjoyed writing about our green penis.

The swamp man’s job is to wake me up from the consensus trance. The next task is to use him as an alliance and then walking around the circle to hear all the voices. I gather all the wisdom I have to channel that energy into dialogue, taking us deeper, I go into the center of my world, the place of deepest humanity, and see the whole picture.

Anger and rage is tied to grief and grief is tied to pain, and pain tied to the universally tragic condition of living on earth as a human being. We are all one circle.

I think, as a writer, the more conscious we are of all voices in our internal circle, the more power we have. Character and insight depends upon empathy, and empathy starts with oneself.

Just because I wrote an attack doesn’t mean I have to use it. Just because I am angry does not mean I have to put my hand through a wall. Besides, I live in an adobe house and there would not be much left of my hand.

Though I do not agree with Citizen’s method, there is benefit. Even I have taken one angle and emphasized disproportionately in marketing my product.

This place of acceptance, like forgiveness, or love, is a process. It is hard to do because it is easier to feel outrage and self righteous than it is to go deep into one’s own heart and find the universal in one’s micro experience.

During extended meditation retreats I have come to really understand completely that what is outside me in the world is really inside me, in my heart and mind. All my life experience points toward one truth: the universe is a giant mirror.

I do not live enough in this wisdom. I can bitch and blame others just as well as the next guy. The recognition that we are all part of one circle, is a journey.

Inside of us there are many circles. There are many altars. There are many gods. Let us honor them all, and not make the mistake that Carl Jung warned us about when he said, “The gods have become diseases.”

My goal with my writing is to take the reader into the heart of our human experience as much as I possibly can. I want to give them no way out except through the understanding that we are all connected.

Now, what may we learn from that?

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Paula Underwood, my Iroquois teacher, was fond of saying, “The amount of conflict you can incorporate into your circle is directly proportional to the amount of peace you will feel.”

Here’s some conflict I’ve let into my circle recently…

I read this press release from Citizen Watch and I was so angry over what I perceived as “green washing” that I could punch my hand through a wall.

I mean, what does Eli Manning have to do with eco friendly consciousness or social responsibility? He’s so rich when so many people in the world are so poor. Feeling mighty righteous, I wrote this text:

“You could hire Eli Manning. You can hire my green penis and pay it a million dollars to endorse your next “eco-watch”.  Listen, my green penis is just as relevant. As far as I am concerned, it can pass, kick and score field goals. No- it is more relevant. I have no children– over population is one of the critical issues for a sustainable future. My green penis would be a better endorsement — if it were for sale, which, I say for all Madison Ave — Alas, my good Sirs–it is not!”

Not really appropriate for someone blogging in support of social responsibility in the jewelry industry. Those adult businessmen who see me in their suits and ties at trade shows would react unfavorably to such a rant. My green penis does not wear a tie. Discretion became the better part of valor.

I have had a meditation practice for over twenty-five years. Pictures of my teachers on my altar stare at me every morning when I sit. Clearly, this is not an “enlightened” perspective. But is that level of cynical, embittered rage a sign of weakness?

The answer to this question gets to the heart of eastern practices versus the indigenous approaches that my Native American teachers have taught me.

Certainly, cynicism is fragmenting. Anyone can dismiss or at the very least, marginalize an attack. Imus, Stern and Rush will always have their limited demographic support for their toxic spew.

What is created over a thousand years can be destroyed in a few seconds. It is harder to actually build something and be life giving.

Yet the first step in working with circle is to give what is in your circle a right to exist. In this case, I am talking about my internal circle of characters. I am not one who has faith in an internal - or external for that matter - monotheism. I pay attention to the archetypal nature of my dreams. There are many characters within.

Working with circle wisdom means honoring the internal characters. This character who wrote the above passage I call the man at the ‘bottom of the swamp’ and he holds one of the critical anchors to my creative process.

He is not some sensitive new age guy down there. He is rooted in cathartic, earth-based perspectives. I have a lifeline down to him. His bullshit meter is hyper sensitive and he can be outrageous. I take him elk hunting, along with my mountain lion.

Alliances with one’s darker side give insight and power. For me, this means fleshing out and even dialoguing with that part of oneself. Ultimately, one gives it a job that it enjoys. He enjoyed writing about our green penis.

The swamp man’s job is to wake me up from the consensus trance. The next task is to use him as an alliance and then walking around the circle to hear all the voices. I gather all the wisdom I have to channel that energy into dialogue, taking us deeper, I go into the center of my world, the place of deepest humanity, and see the whole picture.

Anger and rage is tied to grief and grief is tied to pain, and pain tied to the universally tragic condition of living on earth as a human being. We are all one circle.

I think, as a writer, the more conscious we are of all voices in our internal circle, the more power we have. Character and insight depends upon empathy, and empathy starts with oneself.

Just because I wrote an attack doesn’t mean I have to use it. Just because I am angry does not mean I have to put my hand through a wall. Besides, I live in an adobe house and there would not be much left of my hand.

Though I do not agree with Citizen’s method, there is benefit. Even I have taken one angle and emphasized disproportionately in marketing my product.

This place of acceptance, like forgiveness, or love, is a process. It is hard to do because it is easier to feel outrage and self righteous than it is to go deep into one’s own heart and find the universal in one’s micro experience.

During extended meditation retreats I have come to really understand completely that what is outside me in the world is really inside me, in my heart and mind. All my life experience points toward one truth: the universe is a giant mirror.

I do not live enough in this wisdom. I can bitch and blame others just as well as the next guy. The recognition that we are all part of one circle, is a journey.

Inside of us there are many circles. There are many altars. There are many gods. Let us honor them all, and not make the mistake that Carl Jung warned us about when he said, “The gods have become diseases.”

My goal with my writing is to take the reader into the heart of our human experience as much as I possibly can. I want to give them no way out except through the understanding that we are all connected.

Now, what may we learn from that?

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Hey- This ties into something I’ve been experiencing for a long while, namely, my own difficulty honoring the boundary that’s set by my Inner Swamp Man. “This far and no further,” uttered in the fearsome, no nonsense tone of a warrior; and yet I have tended to blithely push forward into situations where I am being taken advantage of. As I welcome the sense of integrity that comes from those places where I feel self-righteous or full of outrage, I also become more open to leaving situations, relations and contexts that aren’t resonating or that are distractions. It’s interesting how this voice, which we think of as “low” or “base,” is (like all the characters we have within us) a defender of the purpose and integrity of our souls.

The trick is an alliance with Swamp Man that isn’t based on the concession that he gets to act out however, wherever and whenever he wants. He gets his air time in ways that don’t burn bridges. He used to get his air time by sabotaging my outer life, by burning bridges, by throwing slant tantrums when he couldn’t get direct respect and attention.

As for the creative process: I believe it is absolutely amoral. When the juice is flowing in music or writing, all bets are off. It’s pure energy, neutral and not tied to “oughts,” to conventions or niceties. In the novel, there’s all sorts of politically incorrect behavior and attitudes on the part of the characters. They get to tell their stories too, without censorship or squeamishness. Sure, there’s editing and refining and more reflection as part of the process too, but the most stifling thing for me is to try to be a Good Boy when I’m making something. Don’t think there are many Soft Males who make anything particularly moving….

thanks for your thoughts,

Peter

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Hey- This ties into something I’ve been experiencing for a long while, namely, my own difficulty honoring the boundary that’s set by my Inner Swamp Man. “This far and no further,” uttered in the fearsome, no nonsense tone of a warrior; and yet I have tended to blithely push forward into situations where I am being taken advantage of. As I welcome the sense of integrity that comes from those places where I feel self-righteous or full of outrage, I also become more open to leaving situations, relations and contexts that aren’t resonating or that are distractions. It’s interesting how this voice, which we think of as “low” or “base,” is (like all the characters we have within us) a defender of the purpose and integrity of our souls.

The trick is an alliance with Swamp Man that isn’t based on the concession that he gets to act out however, wherever and whenever he wants. He gets his air time in ways that don’t burn bridges. He used to get his air time by sabotaging my outer life, by burning bridges, by throwing slant tantrums when he couldn’t get direct respect and attention.

As for the creative process: I believe it is absolutely amoral. When the juice is flowing in music or writing, all bets are off. It’s pure energy, neutral and not tied to “oughts,” to conventions or niceties. In the novel, there’s all sorts of politically incorrect behavior and attitudes on the part of the characters. They get to tell their stories too, without censorship or squeamishness. Sure, there’s editing and refining and more reflection as part of the process too, but the most stifling thing for me is to try to be a Good Boy when I’m making something. Don’t think there are many Soft Males who make anything particularly moving….

thanks for your thoughts,

Peter

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Peter

I like what you say about all bets being off. Yes, all bets are off. Spirit, intelligence, creativity have been so constrained by our current system that we sit like a frog in warming water, waiting to boil alive… unless some of us start Howling together.

But why do we say that voice of the swamp is low? Low meaning, less than high. Why was Calaban less wise or valuable than Prospero in our Brave New World? Bullshit, I say to that. The destroyers of circles, the Holy Seer and his Inquisition, the builders of empire, have taught us that low, the underworld, is bad, dark and the heavens are good and perfect. What a terrible tragedy and crime against the earth, against our bodies, against the great lovers of beauty within us. They even turned Pan into the devil. Now, I call that evil—though I hate to use the word.

The hard edge, the line, the line that started with Christ and ends with George Bush ascending in Rapture comes in part from our societal split between Dionysus and Apollo. The result is both are experienced as shadow.

Too much Apollo in our world, disconnected from the taste of dirt.

The creative destructive energy of the theatrical Dionysus—addiction– is actually a way of bringing spirit into life which involves breaking down structures, bringing shadow to the bright light. Bringing spirit into matter that is too hardened by the light.

The ceremonial context of the Maenads, the wine, tobacco, theater, the mysterious feminine power of creation has been split off from the sacred. This is just one more instance of what Jung said … Yes, the gods have become diseases.

The wound is in the dialectic form because Western Civ has had too much cooking in Hegel’s kitchen. I say, enter all in the circle. Swamp man, Apollo, everyone. Bring the circle back. Let us all be part of one great whole that honors our individuality. There is no opposition. No more need for monotheistic heroic ego consciousness to guide us to our own extinction.

I also say, Fuck the good boy. (Not in the shadow way of Catholic priests but in the classic sense of Spartan warriors passing on the arête of masculine power.) I’m tired of trying to be nice. You are right. The good boy has nothing to say. He just spends his time watching TV for forty hours a week. He has the emotional maturity of a twelve year old. He is disconnected. In my business, he has turned the death of 3.7 million Africans from Blood diamonds into a statistic, and now he is doing business as usual with his hands clean from new “ethics.”

I want to bring him into our circle too because he has sold his humanity for money.

Our cultural split does not give room for ecstasy because it is out of the rule of law. Hence, the quest for it, and the spirit it brings, ends up being self destructive, but out of that destruction, if honored, rises something real.

Howl! Let all of us Howl about this in our own way! I want to hear your jazzs.

The heart is like an ocean. Hazrat Inayat Khan, the great Sufi mystic who lived in that heart, said it another way. The world is a tavern. Choose your wine.

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Peter

I like what you say about all bets being off. Yes, all bets are off. Spirit, intelligence, creativity have been so constrained by our current system that we sit like a frog in warming water, waiting to boil alive… unless some of us start Howling together.

But why do we say that voice of the swamp is low? Low meaning, less than high. Why was Calaban less wise or valuable than Prospero in our Brave New World? Bullshit, I say to that. The destroyers of circles, the Holy Seer and his Inquisition, the builders of empire, have taught us that low, the underworld, is bad, dark and the heavens are good and perfect. What a terrible tragedy and crime against the earth, against our bodies, against the great lovers of beauty within us. They even turned Pan into the devil. Now, I call that evil—though I hate to use the word.

The hard edge, the line, the line that started with Christ and ends with George Bush ascending in Rapture comes in part from our societal split between Dionysus and Apollo. The result is both are experienced as shadow.

Too much Apollo in our world, disconnected from the taste of dirt.

The creative destructive energy of the theatrical Dionysus—addiction– is actually a way of bringing spirit into life which involves breaking down structures, bringing shadow to the bright light. Bringing spirit into matter that is too hardened by the light.

The ceremonial context of the Maenads, the wine, tobacco, theater, the mysterious feminine power of creation has been split off from the sacred. This is just one more instance of what Jung said … Yes, the gods have become diseases.

The wound is in the dialectic form because Western Civ has had too much cooking in Hegel’s kitchen. I say, enter all in the circle. Swamp man, Apollo, everyone. Bring the circle back. Let us all be part of one great whole that honors our individuality. There is no opposition. No more need for monotheistic heroic ego consciousness to guide us to our own extinction.

I also say, Fuck the good boy. (Not in the shadow way of Catholic priests but in the classic sense of Spartan warriors passing on the arête of masculine power.) I’m tired of trying to be nice. You are right. The good boy has nothing to say. He just spends his time watching TV for forty hours a week. He has the emotional maturity of a twelve year old. He is disconnected. In my business, he has turned the death of 3.7 million Africans from Blood diamonds into a statistic, and now he is doing business as usual with his hands clean from new “ethics.”

I want to bring him into our circle too because he has sold his humanity for money.

Our cultural split does not give room for ecstasy because it is out of the rule of law. Hence, the quest for it, and the spirit it brings, ends up being self destructive, but out of that destruction, if honored, rises something real.

Howl! Let all of us Howl about this in our own way! I want to hear your jazzs.

The heart is like an ocean. Hazrat Inayat Khan, the great Sufi mystic who lived in that heart, said it another way. The world is a tavern. Choose your wine.

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hey Marc- oh boy (so to speak) do I have a lot to say about this…but I am off to play poker. And so it will ferment until tomorrow….

P

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hey Marc- oh boy (so to speak) do I have a lot to say about this…but I am off to play poker. And so it will ferment until tomorrow….

P

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Thanks for quoting Inayat Khan; in researching for the interview I’m doing today with Sonny Rollins I discovered that Sufism has been important for Rollins. I love being present for these connections.

Anyway, a spiritual solution (wrong word, as there is no problem, but it’s one of the few words we have) or a spiritual answer (no question, so, again, inadequate terminology) is so rarely suggested now. Pills, booze, sex, cars, clothes, food, “spirituality” that is really just *identity* or *style*, or even more subtly poisonous, “spirituality” that is all light and no shadow, or that reinforces separation and fragmentation; all these and more are recommended for our starving souls. All the soul wants is to be lived with, given voice, liberated. The soul lives in a world of One, where all is One and One is all. It’s always home, just waiting in whatever form or story we dress it up in, to speak, to breathe. The Man in the Swamp IS The Good Boy. Isn’t that funny?

PB

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Thanks for quoting Inayat Khan; in researching for the interview I’m doing today with Sonny Rollins I discovered that Sufism has been important for Rollins. I love being present for these connections.

Anyway, a spiritual solution (wrong word, as there is no problem, but it’s one of the few words we have) or a spiritual answer (no question, so, again, inadequate terminology) is so rarely suggested now. Pills, booze, sex, cars, clothes, food, “spirituality” that is really just *identity* or *style*, or even more subtly poisonous, “spirituality” that is all light and no shadow, or that reinforces separation and fragmentation; all these and more are recommended for our starving souls. All the soul wants is to be lived with, given voice, liberated. The soul lives in a world of One, where all is One and One is all. It’s always home, just waiting in whatever form or story we dress it up in, to speak, to breathe. The Man in the Swamp IS The Good Boy. Isn’t that funny?

PB

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hey mark, thanks for the invite.
there is thunder over the swamp.
swamp tea is brewing.
in the meantime get rid of that shinny gold jewelry shit at the top of your page. replace it with scorpions, swamp moss and rattlesnakes.
good boy buying trinkets for his wife tonight?
i rather spend the money on a good bottle of scotch or a trip
to the amazon. the vine of the soul twisting and turning in every direction.
howl, not whine.
true surrender is the only option here.
not knowing is the only way to move in the dark.

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hey mark, thanks for the invite.
there is thunder over the swamp.
swamp tea is brewing.
in the meantime get rid of that shinny gold jewelry shit at the top of your page. replace it with scorpions, swamp moss and rattlesnakes.
good boy buying trinkets for his wife tonight?
i rather spend the money on a good bottle of scotch or a trip
to the amazon. the vine of the soul twisting and turning in every direction.
howl, not whine.
true surrender is the only option here.
not knowing is the only way to move in the dark.

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I drink the advice of my good comrades, like the piss that flows from the my Mother’s body in the Amazon river… the best scotch there is, the star dust made holy and infinitely aged in the layers of time that flow out into clouds and rain that drench my garden in Eden. Spirit made earth while I walk in the dark, leaning into that next mystery.

In the old stories what is the nature of those rivers that flow through Hades? Forgetfulness… but what are the others?

This is not about form, not about style, not about spirit and not about soul. If we are to know what story we are in, we must look to the great mythic journeys, for the the new dream in this darkness trying to be born between the arsenic hours between two and four in the morning when I cannot sleep…. this new world can only be expressed in the mythic realm, an emergence a sipapu coughing amniotic fluid of dirt from our lungs as we enter some new illusive to imagine. Or is that new world here, right inside me, the mirror of the outside is what is inside?

I only know that for years I sought to escape through “spiritual means.” True, samadhi is btter than heroin. Now I just want to journey in that green, and let that green into my veins, the green fuse, as Dylan Thomas says.

I had a conversation with a coastal Native guy who asked me: When you are young and hurt, who do you cry to? Your mother, I said. When you are a man, who do you cry to?

Alas, too many men have forgotten how to cry and how to cry to the Mother. Some think that food grows in trucks. Some think that matter is dead. Some think that Mother is only an Indian Guru and not the vibrant snake energy that holds their feet in place while we spin around the sun at twenty-five thousand miles a second. For me, escape from the pain She suffers is a cowardly bypass.

I say, the hell with spirituality and form. Toss away the crutches and learn to walk. For thousands of years the priests have encouraged us to think that form is the essence, when the essence is living without form.

Peter, isn’t that what makes great jazz? Bob, isn’t that what Zen teaches? If you see the Buddha in the road, shoot him.

Here’s a poem I wrote just recently:

Bait and Switch

The incarnation of the corpses piled on my door step
Draped in the drugs of Jefferson Davis, the corporate confederates
Who grow clean fingernails walking in what world they become:
Merely shadows of Stalin, with his five years plans: the death of one
Is a tragedy while the death of millions, a statistic.

I am lying there, each day a bullet aimed at the bodies that drift
Earthbound, inhabited by hungry ghosts that feed off eyes
Tumbling from the sky like whirling ecstatic snow flakes,
Or planets, these bodies of light made water, frozen.

What prayer is possible when one is gathering pieces
Like a Russian woman searching for mushrooms in drought?
She wants to make a good soup from the old country but cannot.
She returns to her hearth grateful just for the next breath.

The worms will do their work in time, returning
The layers to the Mother’s fat stomach.
Her dirt swims with elemental purity greater
Than any thought—perhaps a consolation
If not for this moment which expands infinitely
Like a swamp exploding on a sword’s edge.

PS: Bob—thanks for the advice about the graphics. It is a long story, but I know site needs to be updated and having you see it from the outside reminds me of that.

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I drink the advice of my good comrades, like the piss that flows from the my Mother’s body in the Amazon river… the best scotch there is, the star dust made holy and infinitely aged in the layers of time that flow out into clouds and rain that drench my garden in Eden. Spirit made earth while I walk in the dark, leaning into that next mystery.

In the old stories what is the nature of those rivers that flow through Hades? Forgetfulness… but what are the others?

This is not about form, not about style, not about spirit and not about soul. If we are to know what story we are in, we must look to the great mythic journeys, for the the new dream in this darkness trying to be born between the arsenic hours between two and four in the morning when I cannot sleep…. this new world can only be expressed in the mythic realm, an emergence a sipapu coughing amniotic fluid of dirt from our lungs as we enter some new illusive to imagine. Or is that new world here, right inside me, the mirror of the outside is what is inside?

I only know that for years I sought to escape through “spiritual means.” True, samadhi is btter than heroin. Now I just want to journey in that green, and let that green into my veins, the green fuse, as Dylan Thomas says.

I had a conversation with a coastal Native guy who asked me: When you are young and hurt, who do you cry to? Your mother, I said. When you are a man, who do you cry to?

Alas, too many men have forgotten how to cry and how to cry to the Mother. Some think that food grows in trucks. Some think that matter is dead. Some think that Mother is only an Indian Guru and not the vibrant snake energy that holds their feet in place while we spin around the sun at twenty-five thousand miles a second. For me, escape from the pain She suffers is a cowardly bypass.

I say, the hell with spirituality and form. Toss away the crutches and learn to walk. For thousands of years the priests have encouraged us to think that form is the essence, when the essence is living without form.

Peter, isn’t that what makes great jazz? Bob, isn’t that what Zen teaches? If you see the Buddha in the road, shoot him.

Here’s a poem I wrote just recently:

Bait and Switch

The incarnation of the corpses piled on my door step
Draped in the drugs of Jefferson Davis, the corporate confederates
Who grow clean fingernails walking in what world they become:
Merely shadows of Stalin, with his five years plans: the death of one
Is a tragedy while the death of millions, a statistic.

I am lying there, each day a bullet aimed at the bodies that drift
Earthbound, inhabited by hungry ghosts that feed off eyes
Tumbling from the sky like whirling ecstatic snow flakes,
Or planets, these bodies of light made water, frozen.

What prayer is possible when one is gathering pieces
Like a Russian woman searching for mushrooms in drought?
She wants to make a good soup from the old country but cannot.
She returns to her hearth grateful just for the next breath.

The worms will do their work in time, returning
The layers to the Mother’s fat stomach.
Her dirt swims with elemental purity greater
Than any thought—perhaps a consolation
If not for this moment which expands infinitely
Like a swamp exploding on a sword’s edge.

PS: Bob—thanks for the advice about the graphics. It is a long story, but I know site needs to be updated and having you see it from the outside reminds me of that.

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mark,
its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
thought about howl? why hide your howl here in a remote corner of cyberspace. De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace? if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds with one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage rage against the dying of the night….(also DT) this is a serious question, one i am interested in knowing you. a quick google search for mark choyt will take you right to this page. exposed.the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,
thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just
verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here.
the dream continues.

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mark,
its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
thought about howl? why hide your howl here in a remote corner of cyberspace. De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace? if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds with one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage rage against the dying of the night….(also DT) this is a serious question, one i am interested in knowing you. a quick google search for mark choyt will take you right to this page. exposed.the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,
thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just
verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here.
the dream continues.

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Hey- this is sparky! I’m appreciating the challenges. Bob, the “between” is too easy, isn’t it? Isn’t the hardest thing “both/and”? Because as soon as we say “yeah, I guess I’m between,” we’re believing again that we know what story we are in. I’d like to suggest we can’t know what story we are in. I can believe I know the story I’m in but that’s part of the story I’m in and becomes an attachment, another form among forms , an illusion that I am *something*. Truth is I am, nothing filling in the non-existent blank afterwards.

Cecil Taylor said “form is possibility.”

As for hiding out in a cyberspace backwater, it’s actually (as you point out, Bob) not possible. My internet ramblings are not even a year old and I’ve been contacted by many people who had lost track of me. There’s a new nakedness on here (who knows how temporary it will be?) and a ferocious flow of ideas and opinions that’s pretty vital. and swampy.

As for obscuring the natural world, we are poets by nature with “poet” in its ancient etymological roots simply meaning “maker.” We are makers. So there is no “natural world” without us, really. “Nature without man is barren,” uttered Blake, not arrogantly or in any sort of overmastering way, just bluntly, truthfully. Try being on top of Atalaya without imagining anything, for example. Who knows Atalaya will still be there after “I” am dead? Even the effort to stop making sense makes sense.

PB

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Hey- this is sparky! I’m appreciating the challenges. Bob, the “between” is too easy, isn’t it? Isn’t the hardest thing “both/and”? Because as soon as we say “yeah, I guess I’m between,” we’re believing again that we know what story we are in. I’d like to suggest we can’t know what story we are in. I can believe I know the story I’m in but that’s part of the story I’m in and becomes an attachment, another form among forms , an illusion that I am *something*. Truth is I am, nothing filling in the non-existent blank afterwards.

Cecil Taylor said “form is possibility.”

As for hiding out in a cyberspace backwater, it’s actually (as you point out, Bob) not possible. My internet ramblings are not even a year old and I’ve been contacted by many people who had lost track of me. There’s a new nakedness on here (who knows how temporary it will be?) and a ferocious flow of ideas and opinions that’s pretty vital. and swampy.

As for obscuring the natural world, we are poets by nature with “poet” in its ancient etymological roots simply meaning “maker.” We are makers. So there is no “natural world” without us, really. “Nature without man is barren,” uttered Blake, not arrogantly or in any sort of overmastering way, just bluntly, truthfully. Try being on top of Atalaya without imagining anything, for example. Who knows Atalaya will still be there after “I” am dead? Even the effort to stop making sense makes sense.

PB

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Bob,

What you have raised is a personal and I say, let them find me here, because the strategy of radical transparency as outlined by Clive Thompson in his Wired Magazine article http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/15.04/wired40_ceo.html is the way of the future.
I am a writer, sometimes a poet, and now a journalist and blogger.

I call upon all the men in suits to read this blog because it is a real conversation, a real dialogue about things that matter to all of us and we need to have conversations like this.

Why do you call the work that RI produces trinkets? Do you really feel that Helen as a designer is just designing trinkets? To me, that is a hurtful comment. Would you come into my shop and announce, “Nothing but trinkets being made here?”

The people who make this jewelry are highly trained artists and designers who put love and attention into what they do. I put love and attention into my work. It is my service, just as much as taking care of orphans in Haiti was my service, or meditating for a year in a monastery was my service twenty years ago. We have a great community feeling in our company and that extends also too many of the customers who I sell to. I want only good energy for them.

Maybe jewelry is not your thing and maybe you would rather have a bottle of scotch. But for many people I know personally, to be able to buy something that we make that is beautiful and rich in meaning is a service, especially these days when much of what is made in the jewelry world is merely commodity and soulless.

We have been doing this for eleven years. There are thousands of people who wear what comes out of our shop and deeply connect to its symbolism and beauty. To them, our jewelry is a deep expression of interconnectedness expressed symbolically. Adornment is a fundamental human need; the earliest jewelry found dates back 80,000 years– well before the paintings on the cave walls.

My work place also provides a relatively safe haven for the people I employ from the insanity of corporate America. I have people in our local alternative community who even draw inspiration from a company that offers as much to their people as we do. We are not perfect. But we are attempting to be part of an alternative solution to the mainstream jewelry world and the mainstream business world.

I remember a few years ago we had our dream group meeting in our gallery and I heard you basically cut down the work that and my livelihood. This time I am saying something, because whether you meant it or not, it feels like an attack and since you have done it in a public way, I am responding in a public way. Not all of us can be a healer Zen teacher artists like you. Not all of us can just produce one of kind paintings like you do. You are one of my dearest friends for the last twenty years and I love you, but what you say here feels very elitist. I have not felt this from you for a while, but now I do again so it is good to get it out into the open.

One thing I’d like to say is that we are all in one story that involves sucking from the same straw. It is very easy to attack and put down. But creating a company that I have which is based on a difficult model has involved huge risks, years of no payback, years of struggling and wondering what was I doing in this situation…And there is also another story, here, of feeling like my work in my life in the developing world, as a teacher, as a business person, and as someone who is on a journey has come together and is expressed in my story and in how I work with the energy of my company.

In the early years I felt I was always in the Iliad. Constant war, in a war. The question was, how can I find my way back into the Odyssey? To do this has taken years of struggle, introspection and hard gambling, wondering if I can meet payroll and if I am going to loose the house that I’m living on financing my company since it was and still is on the craps table.

Now I find myself in business and in an odyssey, which is another way of saying, my journey home. It is authentic integration, dealing with constant ethical gray areas of what is fair and equitable, and what is not. How many business people do you know that have a wage scale where the highest paid person in salary makes less than twice the lowest paid person? Do you really think is would be easy for you to create such a model in an environment, a war paradigm business model, that rewards greed? Anyone who even tries to do this is part of my community and I am howling to find them because we need each other now more then ever.

And who do you serve in your work that allows you to sustain yourself? My employees could not afford your services at $125 an hour. I know that you do a lot of discount work for less, but the point is that those who can afford to pay for your services are those who have drunk deeply of the dream that is destroying the earth. The attorneys, the doctors, the insurances agents, the business people. They suck from the Mother’s belly to feed you.

We are all interconnected and all part of one circle. That is basis of my circle manifesto: not to find what separates and puts us into dialectic, not to throw someone’s shit in their face but to honor them, give them the right to exist and ask how we might be able to work together. Everyone has their humanity—even those business people, many of which I count as good friends even if I disagree with many of their ideas. They must be brought into the circle. They are part of the solution as well.

Now, let me address what you say point by point: Your comments are in ( )

(its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
thought about howl?)

Whether Ginsberg would have approved or not, who knows. I think what Ginsberg honored was authenticity and journey. This is not such a remote corner of cyberspace, as Peter said.

(De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace?)

I do not need to worry about losing my job (knock wood) or at least someone firing me. I guess that makes what I say here cowardly.

( if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds)

Diamonds support huge economies in Africa and beyond. There are companies that are mining them ethically. You can read about them on my other blog. There are social entrepreneurs who are doing remarkable service. I am giving them a place to Howl.

These are the companies that I support. So the story here is one that recognizes my connection to the people in Africa and the customers I sell to. How do you bridge that gap? My story is to do the best to try to create a new story in which that exchange is fair and equitable. It is easy to sit back from the outside and slash slash slash away. It is harder to create an industry wide blog, http://www.fairjewelry.org and commit to writing on it to build a community of people who wish to change the way the jewelry world is function. That takes time away from finishing my literary novel and walking in the mountains.

I say, I welcome the men in suits into my circle. They are people too, with hopes and dreams and many of them—those in the rat race wish for a better future. They do not like being disconnected any more than we do. They do not want poison air and water. A small change, pocket change for them, back to the miners in Africa will have a huge effect. It will feed people. That is the story I’m trying to work toward. It is the story I have been trying to work toward my whole life.

(With one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage against the dying of the night…. (Also DT) this is a serious question, one I am interested in knowing you. a quick goggle search for mark choir will take you right to this page. exposed. the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,)

As I said in the original bog entry, the man in the swamp, my wish is to be effective, to work in the circle. Saying it to their face, what good would it do but create polarities? That is a much easier task in many respects than opening the heart and listening and working toward a solution.

(thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here. the dream continues.)

Yes, let the dream continue. We are all one circle. I honor this open hearted dialogue. The man in the swamp is alive and well in all of us.

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Bob,

What you have raised is a personal and I say, let them find me here, because the strategy of radical transparency as outlined by Clive Thompson in his Wired Magazine article http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/15.04/wired40_ceo.html is the way of the future.
I am a writer, sometimes a poet, and now a journalist and blogger.

I call upon all the men in suits to read this blog because it is a real conversation, a real dialogue about things that matter to all of us and we need to have conversations like this.

Why do you call the work that RI produces trinkets? Do you really feel that Helen as a designer is just designing trinkets? To me, that is a hurtful comment. Would you come into my shop and announce, “Nothing but trinkets being made here?”

The people who make this jewelry are highly trained artists and designers who put love and attention into what they do. I put love and attention into my work. It is my service, just as much as taking care of orphans in Haiti was my service, or meditating for a year in a monastery was my service twenty years ago. We have a great community feeling in our company and that extends also too many of the customers who I sell to. I want only good energy for them.

Maybe jewelry is not your thing and maybe you would rather have a bottle of scotch. But for many people I know personally, to be able to buy something that we make that is beautiful and rich in meaning is a service, especially these days when much of what is made in the jewelry world is merely commodity and soulless.

We have been doing this for eleven years. There are thousands of people who wear what comes out of our shop and deeply connect to its symbolism and beauty. To them, our jewelry is a deep expression of interconnectedness expressed symbolically. Adornment is a fundamental human need; the earliest jewelry found dates back 80,000 years– well before the paintings on the cave walls.

My work place also provides a relatively safe haven for the people I employ from the insanity of corporate America. I have people in our local alternative community who even draw inspiration from a company that offers as much to their people as we do. We are not perfect. But we are attempting to be part of an alternative solution to the mainstream jewelry world and the mainstream business world.

I remember a few years ago we had our dream group meeting in our gallery and I heard you basically cut down the work that and my livelihood. This time I am saying something, because whether you meant it or not, it feels like an attack and since you have done it in a public way, I am responding in a public way. Not all of us can be a healer Zen teacher artists like you. Not all of us can just produce one of kind paintings like you do. You are one of my dearest friends for the last twenty years and I love you, but what you say here feels very elitist. I have not felt this from you for a while, but now I do again so it is good to get it out into the open.

One thing I’d like to say is that we are all in one story that involves sucking from the same straw. It is very easy to attack and put down. But creating a company that I have which is based on a difficult model has involved huge risks, years of no payback, years of struggling and wondering what was I doing in this situation…And there is also another story, here, of feeling like my work in my life in the developing world, as a teacher, as a business person, and as someone who is on a journey has come together and is expressed in my story and in how I work with the energy of my company.

In the early years I felt I was always in the Iliad. Constant war, in a war. The question was, how can I find my way back into the Odyssey? To do this has taken years of struggle, introspection and hard gambling, wondering if I can meet payroll and if I am going to loose the house that I’m living on financing my company since it was and still is on the craps table.

Now I find myself in business and in an odyssey, which is another way of saying, my journey home. It is authentic integration, dealing with constant ethical gray areas of what is fair and equitable, and what is not. How many business people do you know that have a wage scale where the highest paid person in salary makes less than twice the lowest paid person? Do you really think is would be easy for you to create such a model in an environment, a war paradigm business model, that rewards greed? Anyone who even tries to do this is part of my community and I am howling to find them because we need each other now more then ever.

And who do you serve in your work that allows you to sustain yourself? My employees could not afford your services at $125 an hour. I know that you do a lot of discount work for less, but the point is that those who can afford to pay for your services are those who have drunk deeply of the dream that is destroying the earth. The attorneys, the doctors, the insurances agents, the business people. They suck from the Mother’s belly to feed you.

We are all interconnected and all part of one circle. That is basis of my circle manifesto: not to find what separates and puts us into dialectic, not to throw someone’s shit in their face but to honor them, give them the right to exist and ask how we might be able to work together. Everyone has their humanity—even those business people, many of which I count as good friends even if I disagree with many of their ideas. They must be brought into the circle. They are part of the solution as well.

Now, let me address what you say point by point: Your comments are in ( )

(its not clear what story you are in right now. in between?
do you think alan ginsberg gave a fuck about what the corporate world
thought about howl?)

Whether Ginsberg would have approved or not, who knows. I think what Ginsberg honored was authenticity and journey. This is not such a remote corner of cyberspace, as Peter said.

(De Briers will find you here anyway. the adult business men in their suit and ties will find you here, too. haven’t you heard of all the people who have lost their jobs because of their personal revelations on myspace?)

I do not need to worry about losing my job (knock wood) or at least someone firing me. I guess that makes what I say here cowardly.

( if you are going to say it here, you might as well say it to their face, or take it back to the swamp. what story allows you to sell diamonds)

Diamonds support huge economies in Africa and beyond. There are companies that are mining them ethically. You can read about them on my other blog. There are social entrepreneurs who are doing remarkable service. I am giving them a place to Howl.

These are the companies that I support. So the story here is one that recognizes my connection to the people in Africa and the customers I sell to. How do you bridge that gap? My story is to do the best to try to create a new story in which that exchange is fair and equitable. It is easy to sit back from the outside and slash slash slash away. It is harder to create an industry wide blog, http://www.fairjewelry.org and commit to writing on it to build a community of people who wish to change the way the jewelry world is function. That takes time away from finishing my literary novel and walking in the mountains.

I say, I welcome the men in suits into my circle. They are people too, with hopes and dreams and many of them—those in the rat race wish for a better future. They do not like being disconnected any more than we do. They do not want poison air and water. A small change, pocket change for them, back to the miners in Africa will have a huge effect. It will feed people. That is the story I’m trying to work toward. It is the story I have been trying to work toward my whole life.

(With one hand and rage against the machine with the other? rage against the dying of the night…. (Also DT) this is a serious question, one I am interested in knowing you. a quick goggle search for mark choir will take you right to this page. exposed. the mythic journeys obscure the story we are in, because we have already turned the energy of the natural world into anthropomorphic gods,)

As I said in the original bog entry, the man in the swamp, my wish is to be effective, to work in the circle. Saying it to their face, what good would it do but create polarities? That is a much easier task in many respects than opening the heart and listening and working toward a solution.

(thunder into thor. thunder into the old testament god. thunder has no wrath. myth obscures the natural world as much as spirituality. journey into the green. verde ,verde, te quiero verde…… no mythic stories there and there is no one there to tell them or to listen to them, just verde, verde, te quiero verde…… good to see you in good writing form here. the dream continues.)

Yes, let the dream continue. We are all one circle. I honor this open hearted dialogue. The man in the swamp is alive and well in all of us.

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mark,
well, i didnt mean anything at all as a personal attack,
i thought you knew the swamp man. he was talking. not me.
its not my fault.
to the swamp man our whole culture is nothing but trinkets.
my art, your jewlry, museum of modern art, versace, picasso,
the mona lisa, an exquisite buddha,all trinkets to piss on. you think you can heal a rock, good luck. you couldnt even heal a tadpole if you had to. he wears lichen for clothes and spanish moss around his neck. you opened this territory mark. kill the buddha, right. i thought we were lightheartedly getting to know each others swamp men. dont take things so seriously. the swamp man laughs at himself continuously, coverd with his own mud and shit. its very confusing how you have jumped out of the swamp man persona into your apallonian hurt little boy persona. thats why i asked you what story you are in. you are very confusing. stay in the swamp man persona a little longer , o.k.?, there is no problem here, no criticism of you or your way of life whatsoever. there is a lot of projection on your part. there is a koan in zen that goes like this. the dog pisses on the temple gate, or the dog pisses on the buddha’s head, etc. i thought that is where you were coming from, what this dialogue was about. i didnt expect you to flip back into this other very serious guy. hey, i think what you and helen are doing is remarkable , great, worthy of 4 gold stars, etc. and by the way most of my clients make less money a year than you do , have no insurance,and could never afford to travel for a month a year. they just happen to know that for a hundred bucks they can take care of a health issue that would cost them thousands otherwise. I am cheap. I dont make much money at this job.my swamp man is irreverant as hell, just like the mudheads making fun of everthing sacred and holy and usefull. you have flipped into your good little boy. i can talk to him to if that is where we are now. just let me know who is hear now.i can accept it all into my circle. i have outlaws,royalty ,jehova’s witnesses, the rumsfeld family, and little abused boys and girls in my circle of clients. i honor them all. you too, so sit back and laugh at it from swamp mans perspective. radical transparency requires a light heart and a great sense of humor about it all. coyote howls and pisses all over your jewlery and my paintings and my hands. it smells great, but it freightens mice and rats away. run for your life. lighten up.

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mark,
well, i didnt mean anything at all as a personal attack,
i thought you knew the swamp man. he was talking. not me.
its not my fault.
to the swamp man our whole culture is nothing but trinkets.
my art, your jewlry, museum of modern art, versace, picasso,
the mona lisa, an exquisite buddha,all trinkets to piss on. you think you can heal a rock, good luck. you couldnt even heal a tadpole if you had to. he wears lichen for clothes and spanish moss around his neck. you opened this territory mark. kill the buddha, right. i thought we were lightheartedly getting to know each others swamp men. dont take things so seriously. the swamp man laughs at himself continuously, coverd with his own mud and shit. its very confusing how you have jumped out of the swamp man persona into your apallonian hurt little boy persona. thats why i asked you what story you are in. you are very confusing. stay in the swamp man persona a little longer , o.k.?, there is no problem here, no criticism of you or your way of life whatsoever. there is a lot of projection on your part. there is a koan in zen that goes like this. the dog pisses on the temple gate, or the dog pisses on the buddha’s head, etc. i thought that is where you were coming from, what this dialogue was about. i didnt expect you to flip back into this other very serious guy. hey, i think what you and helen are doing is remarkable , great, worthy of 4 gold stars, etc. and by the way most of my clients make less money a year than you do , have no insurance,and could never afford to travel for a month a year. they just happen to know that for a hundred bucks they can take care of a health issue that would cost them thousands otherwise. I am cheap. I dont make much money at this job.my swamp man is irreverant as hell, just like the mudheads making fun of everthing sacred and holy and usefull. you have flipped into your good little boy. i can talk to him to if that is where we are now. just let me know who is hear now.i can accept it all into my circle. i have outlaws,royalty ,jehova’s witnesses, the rumsfeld family, and little abused boys and girls in my circle of clients. i honor them all. you too, so sit back and laugh at it from swamp mans perspective. radical transparency requires a light heart and a great sense of humor about it all. coyote howls and pisses all over your jewlery and my paintings and my hands. it smells great, but it freightens mice and rats away. run for your life. lighten up.

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p.s.
i think you are absolutely wrong about saying it to their face.
by not saying it you are excluding them from the circle. in the circle we are all face to face, unavoidable. polarity is hiding it from them.
non polarity is including them in the circle so they can see you face to face and hear what you really think. you are hiding otherwise, stepping outside the circle, calculating, planning, protecting yourself, not showing your swamp man. speaking truth to power means speaking it to their face so they can lip read you if they cant hear you. solutions can only happen if they know what you think. mark, there is something here that you are on the edge of, letting go of your jewish heritage and fear of being put in a concentration camp, and just saying it like it is. that is radical transparency.
give up the drama. or if you want to be diplomatic, forget about the circle.
maybe the circle only works when people want to be in the circle and really know you. maybe you dont want everyone in the circle. maybe the circle is just for your inner life and your friends and community and employees .
when you draw a circle, there is a lot more that is outside of it than is inside of it. knowing who is in your circle and who is outside of it maybe more accurate and important . and with those that are outside of it you need to be a little more tackfull with and suspicious of. and not speak the truth to.
anyone outside marks inner circle wish to comment? I am hiding my circle deep in the wilderness and i know who is outside of it. at this level there are many. i cant draw a circle big enough to include everything . there will always be an outside to the circle if you draw it. dream.

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p.s.
i think you are absolutely wrong about saying it to their face.
by not saying it you are excluding them from the circle. in the circle we are all face to face, unavoidable. polarity is hiding it from them.
non polarity is including them in the circle so they can see you face to face and hear what you really think. you are hiding otherwise, stepping outside the circle, calculating, planning, protecting yourself, not showing your swamp man. speaking truth to power means speaking it to their face so they can lip read you if they cant hear you. solutions can only happen if they know what you think. mark, there is something here that you are on the edge of, letting go of your jewish heritage and fear of being put in a concentration camp, and just saying it like it is. that is radical transparency.
give up the drama. or if you want to be diplomatic, forget about the circle.
maybe the circle only works when people want to be in the circle and really know you. maybe you dont want everyone in the circle. maybe the circle is just for your inner life and your friends and community and employees .
when you draw a circle, there is a lot more that is outside of it than is inside of it. knowing who is in your circle and who is outside of it maybe more accurate and important . and with those that are outside of it you need to be a little more tackfull with and suspicious of. and not speak the truth to.
anyone outside marks inner circle wish to comment? I am hiding my circle deep in the wilderness and i know who is outside of it. at this level there are many. i cant draw a circle big enough to include everything . there will always be an outside to the circle if you draw it. dream.

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Swamp Breslin says “grrrrrrrrrowowowowg!”

(when this particular Swamp Man drinks coffee, there is great danger….)

You know we all have something vulnerable we feel could come under attack. If we’re naked anywhere that’s exactly where we still need to find some sort of welcoming home, some sort of acceptance. I smoke like a frikkin’ chimney and can as yet find absolutely no “justification” or even (really) explanation for continuing to do so. I’m moving to Tempe Arizona in a couple of weeks in order to *stay with my woman* who is getting up to *productive activity* as an MFA student in poetry; me, I’m essentially her pool boy, her butler, at least at the moment as I have no job, no plans, and really no excuse and should *know better*. My Santa Fe snobby friends have all pretty much universally said “You pussy-whipped idiot, why are you moving to a hell hole?”
(Not you Marc, and not a very few others….) But my point is we *lack integrity* in the essential definition of every single aspect or facet of who we are and what we do hanging elegantly and transparently together into one miraculous whole. Swamp Breslin laughs at the apparent splits, self-contradictions and inchoate fragments.

I was looking at a group of ants trying to move a huge piece of a bagel toward their ant hill the other day. Maybe about 13 ants. Some pushing on one side and some pulling on the other. Climbing sometimes on each other, sometimes falling off and running around in circles. The anthill was maybe 4 feet away due west. The piece of bagel jerked north, northeast, back west again, south, zigs and zags and tumbles, sometimes an ant temporarily trapped underneath or left behind. Sometimes it looked like an ant or two on the west side was pushing by mistake, confused and actually engaged in enormous effort against the goal. But over time the piece of bagel somehow continued generally toward the anthill, unaccountably. In each smaller separate moment my judgment was that the piece of bagel would never get there, those crazy ants just wasting time. But I observed for about 15 minutes and eventually they got it pretty much four inches west.

I was thinking those ants are all those seemingly different, fragmented “parts” of who I am. You know it just seems like a big fucking mess a lot of the time.

PB

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Swamp Breslin says “grrrrrrrrrowowowowg!”

(when this particular Swamp Man drinks coffee, there is great danger….)

You know we all have something vulnerable we feel could come under attack. If we’re naked anywhere that’s exactly where we still need to find some sort of welcoming home, some sort of acceptance. I smoke like a frikkin’ chimney and can as yet find absolutely no “justification” or even (really) explanation for continuing to do so. I’m moving to Tempe Arizona in a couple of weeks in order to *stay with my woman* who is getting up to *productive activity* as an MFA student in poetry; me, I’m essentially her pool boy, her butler, at least at the moment as I have no job, no plans, and really no excuse and should *know better*. My Santa Fe snobby friends have all pretty much universally said “You pussy-whipped idiot, why are you moving to a hell hole?”
(Not you Marc, and not a very few others….) But my point is we *lack integrity* in the essential definition of every single aspect or facet of who we are and what we do hanging elegantly and transparently together into one miraculous whole. Swamp Breslin laughs at the apparent splits, self-contradictions and inchoate fragments.

I was looking at a group of ants trying to move a huge piece of a bagel toward their ant hill the other day. Maybe about 13 ants. Some pushing on one side and some pulling on the other. Climbing sometimes on each other, sometimes falling off and running around in circles. The anthill was maybe 4 feet away due west. The piece of bagel jerked north, northeast, back west again, south, zigs and zags and tumbles, sometimes an ant temporarily trapped underneath or left behind. Sometimes it looked like an ant or two on the west side was pushing by mistake, confused and actually engaged in enormous effort against the goal. But over time the piece of bagel somehow continued generally toward the anthill, unaccountably. In each smaller separate moment my judgment was that the piece of bagel would never get there, those crazy ants just wasting time. But I observed for about 15 minutes and eventually they got it pretty much four inches west.

I was thinking those ants are all those seemingly different, fragmented “parts” of who I am. You know it just seems like a big fucking mess a lot of the time.

PB

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a couple more things….Swamp Man one day might laugh at trinkets, but the next he might steal into the palace and abscond with all of the Queen’s jewelry, delighted by the reflections of light off gold and stone. All the jewelry deep in the swamp then, occasionally brought ought, pissed on to reveal again the magic, the mud and slime washed off. And maybe the hurt little boy would have to go into the swamp and get the jewelry back for the Queen and in the process befriend Swamp Man. (Isn’t this how some of the old stories work? Or maybe the little boy would be eaten alive by Swamp Man……or maybe it would be a little girl and she and Swamp Man would have a dozen swamp babies who would rise up and slit the King’s throat and force the Queen into servitude for a thousand thousand years……who knows?)

Another thought: Citizen Watch company *is* full of shit and *is* clearly engaged in greenwashing with their ridiculous “eco watch” campaign starring NFL pretty boy Eli Manning. Let’s not forget what Swamp Man accurately raged against in the first place…..

PB

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a couple more things….Swamp Man one day might laugh at trinkets, but the next he might steal into the palace and abscond with all of the Queen’s jewelry, delighted by the reflections of light off gold and stone. All the jewelry deep in the swamp then, occasionally brought ought, pissed on to reveal again the magic, the mud and slime washed off. And maybe the hurt little boy would have to go into the swamp and get the jewelry back for the Queen and in the process befriend Swamp Man. (Isn’t this how some of the old stories work? Or maybe the little boy would be eaten alive by Swamp Man……or maybe it would be a little girl and she and Swamp Man would have a dozen swamp babies who would rise up and slit the King’s throat and force the Queen into servitude for a thousand thousand years……who knows?)

Another thought: Citizen Watch company *is* full of shit and *is* clearly engaged in greenwashing with their ridiculous “eco watch” campaign starring NFL pretty boy Eli Manning. Let’s not forget what Swamp Man accurately raged against in the first place…..

PB

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I love how infectious “Swamp Man”. Once you mention him, is permitted free reign and is indulgently channeled by all.

In a book I’m presently reading, one of the main characters is constantly plagued by “The Imp of the Perverse”. Basically, Swamp Man makes him do things he aught not do.

I think what you are struggling with here is a need to address the relevant and necessary urge to be angrily honest without being judged or suffering repercussions.

Rather than try to mask your archetypes, give them pen names.

When a given event or topic strikes a nerve within a given character, give that character free reign. By using pen names, you protect your self from any backlash that they might deserve.

Personally, I would love to see some character writing here and on your other blogs. People do it all the time. Do you think Perez Hilton just got lucky that his name was the most frequently searched misspelling of the year. I think not.

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I love how infectious “Swamp Man”. Once you mention him, is permitted free reign and is indulgently channeled by all.

In a book I’m presently reading, one of the main characters is constantly plagued by “The Imp of the Perverse”. Basically, Swamp Man makes him do things he aught not do.

I think what you are struggling with here is a need to address the relevant and necessary urge to be angrily honest without being judged or suffering repercussions.

Rather than try to mask your archetypes, give them pen names.

When a given event or topic strikes a nerve within a given character, give that character free reign. By using pen names, you protect your self from any backlash that they might deserve.

Personally, I would love to see some character writing here and on your other blogs. People do it all the time. Do you think Perez Hilton just got lucky that his name was the most frequently searched misspelling of the year. I think not.

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Well, I say it was the swamp man who wrote my last response, not some Apollonian hurt little boy, but the real rage in him (SWAMPMAN) perceived as a transition from light hearted conversation into heavy judgment… because sometimes jokes have a serious edge. I know hurt little boy rage and I know Apollonian rage and I will say that this rage is not either of those.

Bob, I think the poetry and coyote piss is great and light and all that but again that you’re blog is continuing the judgment of me: “hurt little boy personae.” That is a serious cut: devaluation. Why did you say that? I take in your kind words of support and honor for what Helen and I do, but it was pissed upon by that comment. Typically the little boy does not have a way of grounding his anger. He does not have power to affect the adult world. Typically, Apollo does not deal with shadow and darkness. Do you feel that my response, Bob, is really constellated around these two archetypes? Does my writing seem childish and my anger disconnected from the swamp and the adult world where we function?

In the first entry, my original article, I talked about rage and my green penis. The rage that takes me down to the swamp, the rage I have felt and continue to writing right now twenty four hours later. As to whether it was projection or not, all I can do is quote I line out of a Tibetan tantric text that I know: there is no subjective reality; there is no objective reality. I think that in saying such things, they might mean that life is as clear as the water of a swamp until you reach enlighenment, and even then there is no end to learning. What I know is that the world is a giant mirror. Don’t start accusing others of projection.

This gets to the form of the swamp man, which varies from swamp to swamp and man to man, because for some the swamp is entering the business world as a healer full fledged marketing business plan getting oneself and one’s power and one’s art in the world so it can reach far and wide and for others it entering a cave or for others it is sitting on the beach. What he is in each of us, how he works through as we move our bagel east or west miss spelling Parez Hilton is fluid, I think, like the old stories. The forms change.
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So who is anyone to judge what is swamp man and what is not swamp man.

Now, responding to the PS: how one chooses to navigate, whether one should say it to “their faces” or not, cannot even be considered in the abstract. It is all situational dependent. Of course, sometime the best thing is to be direct and in the face, but at other times such action can only result in losing credibility in a community that one is trying to have an effect upon. My fairtrade.org blog is effective in part because I am an insider in the jewelry industry instead of an NGO. I am effective because I am positive and inclusive. If you are starting a seed in the ground, it needs water and light, not anger and darkness.

It easy for someone to look on outside looking in and judge what I should do or what I should not do or to tell me how I should work in the circle. For me, It comes down to walking the edge of a sword, the path, knowing when to say yes, when to say no, when to do a judo move and when to run away. To say I should commit to one option only suggests I should enter that mandella like a narcissistic child or Cyclops.

My initial article stated my choice clearly at this time: that is, to bring everyone in the circle. That is what my Native teachers have taught me and it is my choice and has nothing to do with concentration camps, my past fears or being a Jew but is based on my understanding at this time as to how I can be most effective as an activist. Didn’t Don Juan dress impeccably when he was outside of the desert? I like that model best. That’s why I cut my hair short instead of wearing it down to my waste. I want to be as effective as possible in the straight world.

Besides, the decisions I make involve real risks. I am the one who has his neck on the line, and it is not just my neck, but the neck of my company as well to some degree. I will continue to attempt to build consensus and by doing that, grow the group of people interested circle based business so it can have the largest reach possible.

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Well, I say it was the swamp man who wrote my last response, not some Apollonian hurt little boy, but the real rage in him (SWAMPMAN) perceived as a transition from light hearted conversation into heavy judgment… because sometimes jokes have a serious edge. I know hurt little boy rage and I know Apollonian rage and I will say that this rage is not either of those.

Bob, I think the poetry and coyote piss is great and light and all that but again that you’re blog is continuing the judgment of me: “hurt little boy personae.” That is a serious cut: devaluation. Why did you say that? I take in your kind words of support and honor for what Helen and I do, but it was pissed upon by that comment. Typically the little boy does not have a way of grounding his anger. He does not have power to affect the adult world. Typically, Apollo does not deal with shadow and darkness. Do you feel that my response, Bob, is really constellated around these two archetypes? Does my writing seem childish and my anger disconnected from the swamp and the adult world where we function?

In the first entry, my original article, I talked about rage and my green penis. The rage that takes me down to the swamp, the rage I have felt and continue to writing right now twenty four hours later. As to whether it was projection or not, all I can do is quote I line out of a Tibetan tantric text that I know: there is no subjective reality; there is no objective reality. I think that in saying such things, they might mean that life is as clear as the water of a swamp until you reach enlighenment, and even then there is no end to learning. What I know is that the world is a giant mirror. Don’t start accusing others of projection.

This gets to the form of the swamp man, which varies from swamp to swamp and man to man, because for some the swamp is entering the business world as a healer full fledged marketing business plan getting oneself and one’s power and one’s art in the world so it can reach far and wide and for others it entering a cave or for others it is sitting on the beach. What he is in each of us, how he works through as we move our bagel east or west miss spelling Parez Hilton is fluid, I think, like the old stories. The forms change.
\
So who is anyone to judge what is swamp man and what is not swamp man.

Now, responding to the PS: how one chooses to navigate, whether one should say it to “their faces” or not, cannot even be considered in the abstract. It is all situational dependent. Of course, sometime the best thing is to be direct and in the face, but at other times such action can only result in losing credibility in a community that one is trying to have an effect upon. My fairtrade.org blog is effective in part because I am an insider in the jewelry industry instead of an NGO. I am effective because I am positive and inclusive. If you are starting a seed in the ground, it needs water and light, not anger and darkness.

It easy for someone to look on outside looking in and judge what I should do or what I should not do or to tell me how I should work in the circle. For me, It comes down to walking the edge of a sword, the path, knowing when to say yes, when to say no, when to do a judo move and when to run away. To say I should commit to one option only suggests I should enter that mandella like a narcissistic child or Cyclops.

My initial article stated my choice clearly at this time: that is, to bring everyone in the circle. That is what my Native teachers have taught me and it is my choice and has nothing to do with concentration camps, my past fears or being a Jew but is based on my understanding at this time as to how I can be most effective as an activist. Didn’t Don Juan dress impeccably when he was outside of the desert? I like that model best. That’s why I cut my hair short instead of wearing it down to my waste. I want to be as effective as possible in the straight world.

Besides, the decisions I make involve real risks. I am the one who has his neck on the line, and it is not just my neck, but the neck of my company as well to some degree. I will continue to attempt to build consensus and by doing that, grow the group of people interested circle based business so it can have the largest reach possible.

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Even the Suits have their Swamp Man. They take him out and go Harley riding on Saturday or play Paint Ball Wars or hire a Dominatrix to bring him out and give his green penis a good airing. Balance? Hell, they wouldn’t know it if it slapped them in the balls. I feel it is important to air our Swamp Dudes whenever we fall out of balance….and not just sit around a campfire, banging on the drum all night.

The Swamp Man is a Bastard. He has to be. Survival in the Swamp. Go ahead. Just try and keelhaul a 20ft Alligator with only a pair of tweezers and a piece of Bazooka Joe Bubblegum…

But that same bastard can see trouble on the horizon. A veteran of a 1001 sleepless nights lurking in the tepid waters of our consumerist society, he can see the disjointed and mocking footsteps of the ‘greenwashing’ businessman as he steps towards the limelight.

And cry ‘foul’! and let loose the dogs of war!

I too have felt the ire of my Swamp Man when I see such as this. Better to unleash him for a while so he can have his rant rather than stuffing his hurt, indignant feelers back inside. But not to destruction. But to creation. It took who knows, how many years for the giant Buddha statues to be built in Afghanistan. And there they stood for a thousand or more years. It took two minutes for the Taliban to blow them up.

But for all his wrath, my Swamp Man can be very sensitive. This also is a requirement for survival. For every predator, there is prey. So too for the Swamp Man. He is prey to others as well. Yet he still stalks his prey, ever wary for the soft growl of the lion behind him.

My Swamp Man can be a right Bastard! My Swamp Man is not a Mentalist. He doesn’t go in for fancy literary expressionism or for obscure archetypal analysis. He’s a meat and taters kind of guy. He’d assume kill you as look at you sometimes. And he has cunning. He can see the maniac loading his gun out of the corner of my eye and can quietly go up and knock shit out of him before the shooting starts. And if he can’t, he has the good grace to get the fuck out of there at speed.

Whether we are having a mutual ass slapping contest here or not, it seems as if some battle lines are being drawn here. Whether we are sticking our toes in the sand and daring one another to step over it or not, it is a pointless exercise at best. If you want to drive your point home quickly, sometimes it is best to be the Bastard and knock shit out of the other guy……metaphorically speaking, of course….

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Even the Suits have their Swamp Man. They take him out and go Harley riding on Saturday or play Paint Ball Wars or hire a Dominatrix to bring him out and give his green penis a good airing. Balance? Hell, they wouldn’t know it if it slapped them in the balls. I feel it is important to air our Swamp Dudes whenever we fall out of balance….and not just sit around a campfire, banging on the drum all night.

The Swamp Man is a Bastard. He has to be. Survival in the Swamp. Go ahead. Just try and keelhaul a 20ft Alligator with only a pair of tweezers and a piece of Bazooka Joe Bubblegum…

But that same bastard can see trouble on the horizon. A veteran of a 1001 sleepless nights lurking in the tepid waters of our consumerist society, he can see the disjointed and mocking footsteps of the ‘greenwashing’ businessman as he steps towards the limelight.

And cry ‘foul’! and let loose the dogs of war!

I too have felt the ire of my Swamp Man when I see such as this. Better to unleash him for a while so he can have his rant rather than stuffing his hurt, indignant feelers back inside. But not to destruction. But to creation. It took who knows, how many years for the giant Buddha statues to be built in Afghanistan. And there they stood for a thousand or more years. It took two minutes for the Taliban to blow them up.

But for all his wrath, my Swamp Man can be very sensitive. This also is a requirement for survival. For every predator, there is prey. So too for the Swamp Man. He is prey to others as well. Yet he still stalks his prey, ever wary for the soft growl of the lion behind him.

My Swamp Man can be a right Bastard! My Swamp Man is not a Mentalist. He doesn’t go in for fancy literary expressionism or for obscure archetypal analysis. He’s a meat and taters kind of guy. He’d assume kill you as look at you sometimes. And he has cunning. He can see the maniac loading his gun out of the corner of my eye and can quietly go up and knock shit out of him before the shooting starts. And if he can’t, he has the good grace to get the fuck out of there at speed.

Whether we are having a mutual ass slapping contest here or not, it seems as if some battle lines are being drawn here. Whether we are sticking our toes in the sand and daring one another to step over it or not, it is a pointless exercise at best. If you want to drive your point home quickly, sometimes it is best to be the Bastard and knock shit out of the other guy……metaphorically speaking, of course….

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